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Twentythird
04:23
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sun falls bruised and shattered through the clouds
sun falls bruised and shattered on the ground
a stunning mosaic of wasted time
so many chances that could have been mine
i am pretty worn down these days
i feel kinda itchy lately
i wander on so many different paths and ways
i'm steady as the wind, please tell me
tell me where to go, go, go
give me something to hold on to, to
you held me every time the big bad rose
hold me please, just hold me close
give me something to grasp on to, to
help me understanding you, you, you
while we're nothing but a liaison
i can't be bothered to move on
i fail so badly at moving on, yeah
shaggy sun stings empty through the clouds
shaggy sun like liquid on the ground
rain pours out of speakers in the walls
flooded brain gets heavy, then it falls
under velvet covers i dissolve
i need a savior so i can evolve
help me shed my fissured ugly skin
tell me where to start, how to move in
tell me where to go, go, go
give me something to hold on to, to
you held me every time the big bad rose
hold me please, just hold me close
give me something to grasp on to, to
help me understanding you, you, you
while we're nothing but a liaison
i can't be bothered to move on
i fail so badly at moving on, yeah
moon drips from the trims of heavy clouds
moon rises alongside heavy doubt
moon destructing headspace into goo
mushy memories spiral down my loo
© Helena Neumann 2019
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2. |
Simplicity
03:00
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simplicity
vibrates unsteadily
through our brains that
crawl up the walls
which they've been thrown at
while we were wrestling
dancing and nestling
on top of your sheets
consciousness
fluctuates heavily
i demand nothingness
i demand it all
downfall
of my pride and prejudice
i demand openness
just you in my eyes
© Helena Neumann 2019
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3. |
Out of Picture
03:52
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i'm whole, you're an island
on our own, each for themselves
you admit that you're not attaching
i float through the city streets
you're strong, i practice my daring
i'm holding on to nothing too eager
you smile at me, my presence starts to crumble
i grin at you, the earth starts to rumble
falling out of picture into you
i built a decent life around me
now i long to breathe you in
now i long to let it begin
dizzy glances between kisses
you press your heart against mine
little signs of change in your touches
sex is even better when body and spirit combine
it's getting weird, you were an island
on your own, i could deal with that
you reveal that you seek attachment
i grow a silly thought inside my spine
you speak as if we were so close already
still i'm holding on to nothing too eager
you say we'll meet soon, you seem certain
i bury my face in your shoulder, i lower the curtain
falling out of picture into you
i built a decent life around me
still i long to breathe you in
still i long to let it begin
one, two, three, four
stepping out of comfort towards you
i liked my life before but this is thrill
now i long to breathe you in
i grin at you silently asking: shall we begin?
© Helena Neumann 2019
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4. |
Losing Me, Losing You
05:38
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your milky white complexion isn't all i need to see
your touch, your grip and sensation aren't what's making me feel free
you're not the wind that paints the most beautiful skies
you're not the one where my heart truly lies
still you're my muse, still i hold you dear
still i lay awake until mornings
'cause of a stupidly simple fear
always watching out for early warnings
i'm terribly afraid of losing you
holding on to every moment
touching you i barely dare
capturing every night we share
i'm utterly afraid of losing you
i take nothing you do for granted
still i know that you equally care
for me - hopefully
your starry liquid eyes are hard to overcome
your gaze, our conversations: frustratingly short, inspiringly long
your lips say my name, they're soft to the touch
everyone else differs from you so much
yet i learned to value
your presence lesser by now
you're an inspiring source to come back to
but sometimes i don't know how
i'm terribly afraid of losing myself
holding on to every shared moment
need others to maintain my mental health
however there's a different kind of wealth
i need to go and find myself
stop taking all i do for granted
hope that one day i equally care
for me - and everybody
© Helena Neumann 2019
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5. |
Fragile
04:41
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i won't harm you
if you promise not to fall in love
we stripped naked
we poured our thoughts into the air last night
you stripped naked
i've never seen you breaking before
i won't tell you
if you promise not to fall in love
'cause then i might admit that i -
don't be scared
last night you let me crawl under your skin
i won't harm you
i just want to lay in there for a while
watch over my sleep
while i lay in there for a while
don't harm me
we would both break 'cause we're so fragile
i won't harm you
'cause you are so fragile, fragile
i am scared
'cause i am so fragile, fragile
i won't tell you
'cause we are so fragile, fragile
© Helena Neumann 2019
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6. |
Don't Cage Me
04:57
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i am looking for dispersion
for a vibrant state of mind
i got lost between the pages
where are the people of my kind?
i am longing for distraction
baby, that's what you are
you're a decent interaction
and for sure won't leave a scar
i am walking towards sunset
red and yellow light to my left and right
casting blueish framed shadows
they decay when i take flight
you might have already noticed
that i am on a rampage stray
i missed you while i owned this
i missed you on my way
don't cage me, please, don't cage me
bounding with me is a promise to not push me down
don't cage me, please, don't cage me
lived long enough for the others so i have to be free
you won't own me, you'll never, never ever own me
bounding with me is a promise to not hold me back
you won't own me, you'll never, never ever ever own me
lived long enough for the others so i have to spread my wings and be free
© Helena Neumann 2019
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Aprox Leipzig, Germany
Lyrics and vocals by Helena Neumann / Music and instruments by Toni Linke
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